Will You Write Me A Love Song?

"I'm not going to write you a love song,
cuz you ask for it, cuz you need it,
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
cuz you tell me it's make or break in this
or you're on your way,
I'm not going to write you a love song, today."

That is the chorus to my latest life song
My obsession has taken new form... now in the words of "Love Song" by Sara Bareilles.

The really intriguing thing about the lyrics to this song is that when you really read them and think about them, they have such depth! They are empowering words for a woman... she is standing up for herself. No more letting yet another guy walk all over her, demanding her to do things, or leaving her hurt...

Head under water and you tell me, to breath easy for a while,
but breathing gets harder, even I know that.
Made room for me, but its too soon to see,
If i'm happy in your hands, I'm unusually hard to hold on to.
Blank stares at blank pages, no easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me...

(chorus)

I learned the hard way, that they all say things you want to hear,
My heavy heart says deep down under your twisted words,
your help just hurts. You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry.
Convinced me to please you,made me think I need this too,
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am...

(chorus)

Promise me you'll leave the light on
to help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
cuz I believe there's a way you can love me because I say...

(chorus)
Babe I'll walk the seven seas when I believe there's a reason
for me to write you a love song, today.

Very interesting...
As I ponder these words and search for the meaning, I wonder why someone would write this? What inspired Sara to write this... what happened in her past to where she finally had enough and took a stand?
I can not help but hurt thinking of how easily girls fall under that spell guys cast. They become so attached, so obsessed, so unhealthily involved that they will do just about anything they ask. They are so intertwined and they feed off the attention, whether it is actually good or not becomes irrelevant because as long as it is attention, even for just a fleeting moment, they can feel special.
The truth is, I've been there... maybe not to that extreme, but close enough... I've had those thoughts, I've longed for the attention of guys and I've tried to please... and I've also felt the pain that comes right along with all of that when... the attention span snaps and they are on to something new, when you don't seem good enough, when they have had enough of this game and are on to the next... when you are left wondering?? Left crying... racking your brain for what you could have possibly changed to make it better, going over the situation over and over again, thinking of how to fix it next time... but never, ever getting there. So you move on to someone new thinking maybe this time it will be different. Maybe he really means what he says. Maybe i will be satisfied if I just have him. The games begin, back and forth, maybe even trying new things to make you win a little faster or grab their attention even more, all the while degrading yourself and the very masterpiece God created. The longer it goes on the more you compromise yourself and your morals and the harder the sting in the end. It never fails... thirst for that kind of attention always leaves you even more thirsty than before, never satisfied.

But... ah ha... there is hope! There is a way to stand up and say NO! To stop playing the games, to heal the wounds, to stop new ones from forming, to quench your thirst and to be satisfied...

That, comes in the truly amazing mercy and love of our Heavenly Father!! HE gives you attention when no one else will, HE loves you when it seems like no one else does, HE makes you feel special, HE thinks you are perfect the way you are, HE does not require you to do anything to gain His love because nothing you can do is good enough, HE will quench your thirst and HE will truly satisfy when no one else will and because no one else can. There is nothing you can do to make that go away once you have honestly found it and there is nothing anyone else could offer that would ever be as good as what you find in HIM!

And that... is sort of what this song represents... on a very small, tiny and distorted scale... and that is what I think of when I look deep into the words and see where it moves me. I might have gotten a little carried away... but you got the point I hope.

Don't read my thoughts and be saddened... rejoice with me in who God is! Give HIM the praise!

So bounce your shoulders, sing the words, twirl around and be confident in who you are in HIM!! You are free, God has set you free!!!

Write HIM a love song.... today...